The first time I saw my toes after months with a bulbous belly in the way, I started ironically humming a song that I have always loved “…this is what it’s like, finding your feet again.“
A few days ago, the song popped into my head again, and it was hard to stifle a chuckle when I realized how different those words now felt to me. This is the newest stop on my motherhood journey- finding my feet again. Figuring out who I am. Gradually, I am starting to feel like “myself” again, however I am realizing that “myself” is different than I remember. “Myself” is so much more than it was before.
Before bringing my little man earthside, before bearing witness to my body’s own goddess strength, I was a different version of myself. The question “Why don’t you tell me about yourself?” was immediately met with a description of my possessions, my career. Those were the feet I stood on- weak & unstable- those of a child.
It has been incredible seeing my life and priorities evolve in such a short amount of time. Just as in labor, there has been a moment of transition- a short time where I was on the cusp of my new self, but afraid to embrace it. The uncertainty made me shakey, nauseous. Just as in labor, however, I came through this transition ready to push. Ready to push myself into a new, better version of me. And, just like in labor, I have pushed enough to produce a new life- my own. Now, “Why don’t you tell you about yourself?” is met with this:
I am a Wife & I am a Mother. These are the two feet that I stand on-the feet of a Woman. These are feet that acknowledge that my life is only as beautiful as those whom I share it with. These are the feet that will carry me safely, sturdily, on this journey.
Becoming a mother is certainly a transition! Good luck on your journey. You’re off to a wonderful start.
You are an amazing Daughter, Mother and Wife and I always new you would find you “Feet” in Life! I Love you!
Amazing honey! I.m so happy to be going on this journey with you. This is how I felt after having my babies. Would never go back. And I.m in love with both my sons to this day. Be as happy and proud of yourself from this day forward. No one will ever replace you. You are Michaels MOM….be amazed and love this new YOU. It’s Gods blessing to you. It’s an HONOR.
So amazed by your beautiful words, Tammie
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